this is mostly whining/complaining/whatever

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new(?) things
this category is a little weird because I don't really have a lot of new experiences in a day, but maybe I'll change that. I'm getting used to this platform again, and tumblr, which is nice. It is really kind of chaotic to have to check so many different socials, but I don't mind.

good things
I had today off, and it's the first sunday I've had off and to myself in probably months. I cleaned my house last night to make it functional so I didn't have to do anything today and it's been great. I watched survivor and wrote fic and then made a powerpoint about former figure skaters. It all feels good! Hopefully I will read some tonight too.

annoying things
thanksgiving is coming and I have a lot to do! I need to make pumpkin bread/cake, I need to take my mom to her appointment on tuesday, i need to do so much laundry....I'm overwhelmed. It's all manageable though.

gratitude of the day
stealing from brenna bc I like it. I'm thankful for my cats and a place to live and people who love me.

new things
I picked up a new coffee. It's a holiday blend called "chocolate cheer" and I made cold brew with it. I like it so far! It has a deep, rich dark chocolate smell and taste to it, which I love.

good things
I saw my friend and celebrated her birthday with her tonight. That was fun. I saw some other people I hadn't seen in a bit! I always have fun when that happens. We played Cards Against Humanity, which generally I don't like to play as it turns into an opportunity to just be mean to one another, but this group did not do that.

I saw Ateez in Fort Worth last wednesday, and they were SO good. I know they are great performers but seeing them live was next level and I am so glad I went, even if I slept through my alarm the next morning. I can post some pictures and stuff in another post if other people are interested! I think I was most surprised by Seonghwa. He is so gorgeous and such a dynamic and powerful performer. I was happy to see my main bb Mingi, too. They are all so talented!!! Also, I was originally seated in the upper bowl, but I...seat jumped. I'm part of the problem!!! But I was sooo close and they were seats that hadn't sold. I'm not a thief!

annoying things
I have honestly too many to count, but the main one right now is how soul-sucking working in retail is during the holidays. People are so rude and so entitled. Please be kind to retail workers, folks!

hi! here are some icons I made pretty quick. They're all images from official accounts (including some youtube screenshots lol...) If you have a request, let me know!
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I have never successfully journaled before, but maybe I’ll start trying. I guess I just think I don’t have much to say that people will care about. Also, when I have a blank page in front of me, all my thoughts zoom out the window.

so, let’s try categories.

new things
I’ve started putting “they” in my pronouns. for so long i thought of pronouns as something you have to be, which i realize of course is idiotic. (to be clear, i thought this for myself and not other people!) so, i guess that’s true still kind of, but adding “they” has given me this sense of relief. the idea that i don’t have to be a girl all the time (and eschewing the idea of the gender binary…if i’m not a girl then i must be a boy (which i have been eschewing for a long time! but it’s one thing to know something and another to apply it to yourself.)) is actually really comforting. i can just exist in my body and that’s ok. i haven’t mentioned it to
my mom yet because she’ll ask a million questions that i don’t know the answers to, but maybe one day i will.

good things
it’s finally cold!!!!!! i got to wear my sweatshirt from my study abroad trip in cork!!! ;_____; i’m seeing ateez next wednesday!!!!!! i bought an extremely cute jar from my ceramicist friend. i am so excited to put trinkets inside.

annoying things
i think my car battery is going to die and i also have to renew my registration this month….rip wallet.