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bamboozled) wrote2022-11-11 11:03 pm
bamboozled) wrote2022-11-11 11:03 pm
nov 11 22
I have never successfully journaled before, but maybe I’ll start trying. I guess I just think I don’t have much to say that people will care about. Also, when I have a blank page in front of me, all my thoughts zoom out the window.
so, let’s try categories.
new things
I’ve started putting “they” in my pronouns. for so long i thought of pronouns as something you have to be, which i realize of course is idiotic. (to be clear, i thought this for myself and not other people!) so, i guess that’s true still kind of, but adding “they” has given me this sense of relief. the idea that i don’t have to be a girl all the time (and eschewing the idea of the gender binary…if i’m not a girl then i must be a boy (which i have been eschewing for a long time! but it’s one thing to know something and another to apply it to yourself.)) is actually really comforting. i can just exist in my body and that’s ok. i haven’t mentioned it to
my mom yet because she’ll ask a million questions that i don’t know the answers to, but maybe one day i will.
good things
it’s finally cold!!!!!! i got to wear my sweatshirt from my study abroad trip in cork!!! ;_____; i’m seeing ateez next wednesday!!!!!! i bought an extremely cute jar from my ceramicist friend. i am so excited to put trinkets inside.
annoying things
i think my car battery is going to die and i also have to renew my registration this month….rip wallet.
so, let’s try categories.
new things
I’ve started putting “they” in my pronouns. for so long i thought of pronouns as something you have to be, which i realize of course is idiotic. (to be clear, i thought this for myself and not other people!) so, i guess that’s true still kind of, but adding “they” has given me this sense of relief. the idea that i don’t have to be a girl all the time (and eschewing the idea of the gender binary…if i’m not a girl then i must be a boy (which i have been eschewing for a long time! but it’s one thing to know something and another to apply it to yourself.)) is actually really comforting. i can just exist in my body and that’s ok. i haven’t mentioned it to
my mom yet because she’ll ask a million questions that i don’t know the answers to, but maybe one day i will.
good things
it’s finally cold!!!!!! i got to wear my sweatshirt from my study abroad trip in cork!!! ;_____; i’m seeing ateez next wednesday!!!!!! i bought an extremely cute jar from my ceramicist friend. i am so excited to put trinkets inside.
annoying things
i think my car battery is going to die and i also have to renew my registration this month….rip wallet.
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and yes! most of the time i’m fine with Girl but sometimes it’s just like. must i????????????